I left home really early today hopeful and a little prepared for almost anything. I usually ask myself ; "What's the worst that could happen?" Trust me, a lot of worst... could. After i say a prayer, it feels like no matter what, i'll survive the day. Was talking to a friend about how sad people around might get if we cease to exist. I said they'll probably miss us for a bit and then it'll be like we were never there. Be that as it may, i would love to have left my mark on the sands of time. Not just to be remembered, but to know i made a difference.
I want to be free, i want peace, i want to be me. I also want "My Heart" back.There are all this people i see and i can't feel a thing, just loneliness in a crowd and i can't leave even if i want to. That makes me mad at times " but in the moment a tear falls... all hatred becomes a distant blur." I miss us, i miss everything. Don't want to go back there but i can't leave either. Maybe i'm just deluded, probably it's just in my mind. Though i'm a little scared to ask; "What if not?"
Monday, December 13, 2010
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Que sera, sera - What will be, will be.
Often than none we bother ourselves about what should have been, what should be and what would be. We don't have to. I know; "it's easier said than done". Today i had the opportunity of being in the company of a friend and my cousin. I was just contended to be with them despite the fact that i was wary at first. Worried about what to say and make their stay fun. I had no idea the day was going to be this great but you know what? I'm glad i didn't anticipate it. I was a good day though. To crown it all, i got to talk to my best friend at night. I didn't see that coming either.
Don't worry about tommorrow, just trust in the Lord. He'll take care of you. Commit your ways unto him and he'll set your part straight. I've had more frequent down moments this past months but i believe things are getting better. I have this really wonderful sister who stands by me through and through. I'm blessed she is my sister. I miss my best buddy but i know we'll find eachother again. Our paths are tied together so we can never really be apart.
Christmas is in the air and if nothing, i want you to see the fact that God cares for the bird's of the air, the lillies in the valley he beautifully clothes, how much more you whom he loves and call heirs.
Whatever will be will be and we know that all things work together for good for them that loves God and are called according to his purpose. Worry not. Que sera, sera.
Don't worry about tommorrow, just trust in the Lord. He'll take care of you. Commit your ways unto him and he'll set your part straight. I've had more frequent down moments this past months but i believe things are getting better. I have this really wonderful sister who stands by me through and through. I'm blessed she is my sister. I miss my best buddy but i know we'll find eachother again. Our paths are tied together so we can never really be apart.
Christmas is in the air and if nothing, i want you to see the fact that God cares for the bird's of the air, the lillies in the valley he beautifully clothes, how much more you whom he loves and call heirs.
Whatever will be will be and we know that all things work together for good for them that loves God and are called according to his purpose. Worry not. Que sera, sera.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
POETRY!!!
It's a new week and i'm feeling better than the last so, i figured i better start out the week with a little cheer. I missed my blog yesterday because our electricity went off. The transformer acts up sometimes like that. Mother was around so the night wasn't so bad. I miss her now that she's returned home. Anyway, back to poery...
I particularly fell in love with "The Mesh" by Kwesi Brew a Ghanian poet the first time i read a book on collection of African Poetry. I was really young then but it touched me in a strange way and i just never forgot the words...
"We have come to the crossroads,
and i must either leave or come with you.
I lingered over the thought but in the darkness of my doubt,
you lifted up the lamp of love and i saw in your face, the way i should take."
After reading this, i wondered if i could put my own feelings down simply with few words accurately and precise. In short...poetically. I did for the first time and i titled it "The blue Sea" sort of funny... i know. I was a young girl who read a lot of Nora Roberts' books, my imagination was wow! The poem was really amateur it read
"Tired and dejected i sat at your bank
on the stones that are as white as snow they look like diamond
the breeze from your waters dry away my tears
the torrent of your wave keep the smile on my face
The blue sea, Oh the blue sea.
You dry my tears, make me forget my sorrows,
Make me forget my sorrows, put a smile on my face and keep me excited always
I'll always cherish you BLUE SEA."
Over the years, i got better. My best poems were when i'm either excited or really sad. I write when i see a word i like, or i here a sentence and i can't let go of it or i'm bored and i want to remember the feeling at that moment. The poem i love most of all i wrote for the one i love, its titled "I guess you know". I wrote it after i fell in love with him. It may not be the best of my poems but its cherished because i wrote it in love, i still feel thesame way whenever i see him, whenever i read it and whenever i hear of him.
I guess you know, what is in my heart
my every second is filled with you,
my today and tommorows too.
I guess it shows, the loneliness within my heart
i tried to hold back but my world is undone
old wounds i fear the sting of love might ignite
but in the moment a tear falls, all hatred becomes a distant blur
I guess you'll stay, though i sit and stare wondering what fate has in store.
Loving again i dare, though a choice i did not have.
You probably know, i can love you with all that i am.
If you have a gift or just the urge to do something good and right, do it. You might just be developing yourself for greater things in the nearest future. Those who have gone ahead started from somewhere before they achieved amazing results that brought them into limelight. For me, it's all about the love, the joy, the peace, the fulfilment, the contentment. Have a great week.
I particularly fell in love with "The Mesh" by Kwesi Brew a Ghanian poet the first time i read a book on collection of African Poetry. I was really young then but it touched me in a strange way and i just never forgot the words...
"We have come to the crossroads,
and i must either leave or come with you.
I lingered over the thought but in the darkness of my doubt,
you lifted up the lamp of love and i saw in your face, the way i should take."
After reading this, i wondered if i could put my own feelings down simply with few words accurately and precise. In short...poetically. I did for the first time and i titled it "The blue Sea" sort of funny... i know. I was a young girl who read a lot of Nora Roberts' books, my imagination was wow! The poem was really amateur it read
"Tired and dejected i sat at your bank
on the stones that are as white as snow they look like diamond
the breeze from your waters dry away my tears
the torrent of your wave keep the smile on my face
The blue sea, Oh the blue sea.
You dry my tears, make me forget my sorrows,
Make me forget my sorrows, put a smile on my face and keep me excited always
I'll always cherish you BLUE SEA."
Over the years, i got better. My best poems were when i'm either excited or really sad. I write when i see a word i like, or i here a sentence and i can't let go of it or i'm bored and i want to remember the feeling at that moment. The poem i love most of all i wrote for the one i love, its titled "I guess you know". I wrote it after i fell in love with him. It may not be the best of my poems but its cherished because i wrote it in love, i still feel thesame way whenever i see him, whenever i read it and whenever i hear of him.
I guess you know, what is in my heart
my every second is filled with you,
my today and tommorows too.
I guess it shows, the loneliness within my heart
i tried to hold back but my world is undone
old wounds i fear the sting of love might ignite
but in the moment a tear falls, all hatred becomes a distant blur
I guess you'll stay, though i sit and stare wondering what fate has in store.
Loving again i dare, though a choice i did not have.
You probably know, i can love you with all that i am.
If you have a gift or just the urge to do something good and right, do it. You might just be developing yourself for greater things in the nearest future. Those who have gone ahead started from somewhere before they achieved amazing results that brought them into limelight. For me, it's all about the love, the joy, the peace, the fulfilment, the contentment. Have a great week.
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