ABOUT LOVE...

A lot of people have a lot of different thoughts about love. I just use the Bible as a standard when it comes to what love really is.

            "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." 1 corinthians 13.

 Shakespeare said;  "love is not love which alters when it alteration finds, or bends with the remover to remove. O no! It is an ever fixed mark that looks on tempests and is never shaken;..." that is an extract from Shakespeare's Sonnet 116.

One true thing we can all agree on is when we have love, we can make it through anything. "Greater love  has no man than this; than to lay down his life for his friend ". Christ did that for the whole world. If you ask me, that's setting the best example. We might not lay down our life for someone but we can show those in our lives just how much they mean to us everyday. Love for family, love for that special someone, love for friends and neighbors. It's worth thinking about at the very least.

We'll be just fine

I've heard it times without number that one's whole life flashes before their eyes in a near death experience and that the very thing you care for the most is the last thought on your mind. I didn't have a near death experience to see this, i only stumbled on a DVD player in my closet to have these flashes. As i packed my stuffs, my chest got heavier, i had to weep, release some pain. I listened to Emily Greene's "Just fine" over and again. Didn't quite get all the lyrics but here's how i heard it.
                           
                                         JUST FINE LYRICS - EMILY GREENE
I’m so tired of wasting my time, 
Being worried, ill and unkind.
If I could stop my panic,
Abandon my troubles,
Let go of my doubts…
Maybe then

I’d be just fine
I’ll be just fine
Just Fine

I’m so busy thinking about tomorrow,
I’m forgetting today.
Stark swimming through molasses
Caught watching life as it passes
Letting time blow away… 

But I’ll be just fine
Just fine 

Wishing for good days 
Wishing for happy ones
Wishing for good days 
Wishing for happy ones                      
                 
                         As i listened, i thought if we could really stop our panic, abandon our troubles and let go of our doubts, we'll be just fine. The thing is; it's easier said than done. I'm gonna miss this place, but change is a part of life and i guess, it's time to move on from here.

Fashion and health...

In this part of the world, it is very cold this time of the year. It's been like forever since i got here but i'm still not used to the cold. I got me some thick winter coats, a couple of sweaters and thermal wears to go. I've got a thing for cotton but this season, leather and fur doesn't feel so bad. So, i wear 2 thermal turtle necks and on it a cotton sweater, a leather jacket and then my coat. My friends say i kinda overdo it but at least i'm not the one shaking along the way wishing for another layer of covering... :). The stores at the City centre here in Lugansk have got just the right fabrics, same applies to the market and even the underground store in Rosea. Autumn wears are out of stock now and different beautiful designs for the winter season are in stock.
Moreover, there are a few shops with good stock and discounts on them. I got lucky the other day at the stock market here, they gave out an extra thermal wear for every two i bought... that's a good one. Needless to say, i've got no reason not to enjoy this winter with the different right combinations while still avoiding pneumonia. Head warmers, earmuffs, even masks different designs, different colours and still classy. So when next you go shopping for the season, shop right and well. Considering your health as much as you do fashion... you can have it both ways :).

ALWAYS AFTERALL...

If you're ever faced with sorrow
don't ever stop believing that happiness will come around.
What's a day not followed by night?
What's a journey with no goal in sight?
Smile in the face of sorrow and sing....



If there's ever a lack in life,
if your eyes ever moisten with strife,
don't you shed a single tear, don't be sad,
don't give up on the world.
Let it not shake you, hurt you or ache you.
Laugh and proclaim to the world
that the days of sunshine will be here again.
Seasons will go and come



Let storms blow with all their might.
Your flame may flicker, don't turn out that light.
Through the darkest night,
through wrong and right,
we need to keep moving on, however hard it might get.
Exhale your fears with every breath.
I always say; the clouds may rumble over,
let the sun shine through.

Always afterall, love is all that matters and
love conquers all. These were words i put together for someone i loved so dear, i told him to read it every time he felt down and remember that when all seems lost, nothing is cause he's got me. Unfortunately, he did things that hurt my very soul but i read this again myself and i still believe that love does coquer all. Have a good one y'all...

Taking charge...

I woke up late today...again. The deal is, i sleep at dawn earliest 3am. Most of the time 5am or 6am. When i finally get some sleep, i sleep well till i'm disturbed. Anyway, i brushed my teeth read my Bible and talked to God after which i continued the game "Hit man 2 Silent assassin". Lovely game by the way, really interesting. I completed it today. Well, by the time i realized i had not taken break fast or lunch, neither have i had my bath, It was 2pm. I ate the loaf of bread remaining and was feeling lonely. Before those thoughts that i had managed to lock out began to creep in again i decided to take a bike ride. I love bike rides.
             Point of this story is; you can take charge of your feelings, events that you have control over and your thoughts. As i took my ride, i found myself close to water view. Water view is a small lake in the town i live. People go there for different fun reasons. I go there cause i'm in love with water bodies.They give me a feeling of calm and peace. The lake did remind me of the beach but it didn't make me sad from the memories. I was excited as i ordered a drink and pepper soup which was delivered really late by the way. Better late than never i guess. The couple of times i came here, i had brought someone dear to me along. Once was to cheer him up, subsequently, for fun and internet connection... Don't ask... Funny thing is, we haven't spoken since we had a fallout some weeks back but i really don't want to talk about that. People always come and leave only few real ones remain for life.
               I enjoyed the serenity at the bank of the lake, watched kids and their families play, i watched friends and lovers talk and i saw those who came alone too. By the time i checked my watch it was 6:30pm. I had to get back before dark. When i got to my room, contrary to my expectation, i felt fine. Refreshed you can say. Tomorrow, i'm expecting my ex-boyfriend. I asked him to come. Damn! I'm impulsive that way. I needed to talk to someone some days back, and he's the only other person that ever understood me plus we still talk so i called him and he said he'd be here tomorrow. Now i'm thinking maybe it isn't such a great idea. I guess i'll find out tomorrow. I have to go now, enough bore already. In my side of the world, it's good night. Yours maybe good morning or afternoon possibly evening... who cares. Have a good one y'all.

A NEW DAWN

                  I read a blog today...at this url;  playbookutunu.blogspot.com. It's titled "Dear future wife" ... it's hard to believe but i'm still laughing. Wish i could be that funny. lol. I haven't blogged in months, i've been trying to change my lifestyle, i figured if i did, maybe everything else will... or maybe i was trying to be someone else. All the same, that didn't work out so well.
                   I was supposed to tell you about my trip to Lagos, it was more fun than i planned but it didn't change anything, i came back to meet all that i ran away from.  Life goes on whether i deal with my pain, hide it or run away from it. I don't care anymore. I'd be moving away from here soon enough, i wonder what my new place will be like. Adjusting to new faces isn't exactly my thing but i adapt well after about a year...lol. Yea... i'm guessing i have long boring months ahead. Small price to pay though for a fresh start. Heck i'm gonna toast to that... "To new beginnings".
                 There is this track in "Vampire diaries" season 2 episode 16 or so; Broken strings by James Morrison ft Nelly Furtado. it's amazing, can't stop listening to it. Music is food for the soul so i feed mine with a rich meal. I gotta go now before i blab more than necessary. It's good to be me again, i've missed me. Hoping to write about something sizzling this new month...let those fingers remain crossed.

What i want

                 I left home really early today hopeful and a little prepared for almost anything. I usually ask myself ; "What's the worst that could happen?" Trust me, a lot of worst... could. After i say a prayer, it feels like no matter what, i'll survive the day. Was talking to a friend about how sad people around might get if we cease to exist. I said they'll probably miss us for a bit and then it'll be like we were never there. Be that as it may, i would love to have left my mark on the sands of time. Not just to be remembered, but to know i made a difference.
               I want to be free, i want peace, i want to be me. I also want "My Heart" back.There are all this people i see and i can't feel a thing, just loneliness in a crowd and  i can't leave even if i want to. That makes me mad at times " but in the moment a tear falls... all hatred becomes a distant blur." I miss us, i miss everything. Don't want to go back there but i can't leave either. Maybe i'm just deluded, probably it's just in my mind. Though i'm a little scared to ask; "What if not?"